||[Dec. 26th, 2007|06:39 pm]
it all happend at a fast rate. ive felt it coming but i was just ignoring it. remeber when your parents gave you that one talk about your friends not being your friends? that you will only have your family as your friends? its true. its all true. i thought my friends would have my back but they dont. not all right but some. its interesting how they tell you something one day -dont worry i got ur back- and dont know you the next day. |
ive hit rock bottom and found a trap door and hit it again and again and again. ive lost a job at the salon i was working for, almost getting fired from the other job, i dont have money, i dont have friends, no cell phone and have been starving myself cuz there is no food. and the best part its the holidays. what a year! what a way to end the old year and start a new one.
so i say this now, im at the lowest of my life.... but there is no other direction to look for than up.
i lost the love that was once in me. i lost everything... but a cold heart still needs to move on.