||[Aug. 22nd, 2009|04:54 pm]
To be honest i really don't know where else to go. I have soooooo much bottled up in my life that i just want to run. Like leave forever. Ive done some shaddy things in my life and i keep hitting rock bottom. Im in desperate need of talking to someone. But im also unwilling to do it. I keep telling myself its going to be ok and continue to make things better. I see myself becoming more and more distant from the things i love doing and the people who i talk to. I hid in my room and try to make the day go faster. Would my life be better in a different place? Away from where i am. Or do i simply look at life and come to a conclusion that it is what it is? Ever since you have left i still keep thinking about you. Why is it that one person can change your life and not even yourself at the bottom change your own. Is it that i just need someone to help me back up again or the fact that there is someone to help me. Where does it all begin? where does it end? Its as if i am one person with mixed up feeling and wanting to find a purpose in life. To each its own right? What if there wasnt a purpose to life? |
Maybe thats what it is... the purpose is to find out what is the purpose.