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its all the same.. [Apr. 20th, 2007|02:47 pm]
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[mood |confusedconfused]

Yeah, i guess i should be happy. Someone once told me I was trying to be something that I'm not. And sadly... i think they were right. But for once i think i made a right decision in moving on with my life.. and leaving everything behind.

Should I really feel this way about this person? I cant help it...
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Cold meanings [Mar. 28th, 2007|08:14 am]
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[music |Sister Soleil]

Its kinda hard to just not care about yourself if anything. I guess sometimes we have to make a choices that we just have to accept. Sleeping at nights dont really keep the worries away. Well just for a while but not forever. It wont be long till the time comes..... it will hit me really hard and i will be dawned to the pit.

But for now ill slow down and keep my eyes out.
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(no subject) [Mar. 22nd, 2007|09:57 pm]
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[mood |worriedworried]
[music |The Forecast- somethings never change]

Well! Havent really been here in a long time.

Guess not alot of people either.

Well, what can I say. It feels good to not go to school anymore. But it does make me sad that I won't be seeing those people who I've spend time with at school.

I say part of growing up and getting old contributes to learning to move on and forgetting the past. Those were some good times and some not so great but hey i learned alot. From being myself to learning how to deal with difficult clients. Not to mention, how to believe in myself- which has always been the hardest things. I miss alot in my life but i lost alot of it to alot of stupid shit.

Now its time to start with a fresh mind, new views, and a new me. I'll give it all I can. And I will be the best I could be.

Thanks for everything......everyone.
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(no subject) [Mar. 12th, 2007|06:46 am]
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im done.

im done sssssooooo fucken soon....

im so fucken scared. very fucken
u make my life better ..please be there for me...
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(no subject) [Feb. 21st, 2007|06:35 am]
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Got nothing but shit. 18 days to got....what do I?

I sit and realize that everything I cared was gone but I think this is was I expected....I do miss everythin but I don't.....my life begins...

...u were my superman. U were my everything.....
And I'm sorry to let u go...u didn't what me in it life...the best for you
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(no subject) [Feb. 4th, 2007|03:52 pm]
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i know i shouldnt have but it happend. I know is an issue and it needs to be worked on.
Im sorry for everything please... just give me hope. give me strength. give me suport.

it wasnt supposed to be this way
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(no subject) [Dec. 17th, 2006|03:07 pm]
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It just fucken aggravates me!

I dont want to know that a bird is involved. I dont want to know hes happy. DONT FUCKEN TELL ME!

its useless to try and talk to someone you actually care about

Perdona me. I dont know what we made out of this.

.....but no-matter-what you will always be cared for and loved for. Even tho you dont know it. But thanks

-Digital Bath

P.s. dont mak emy life shit
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(no subject) [Nov. 26th, 2006|06:36 pm]
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So far so good. I will be almost done with school hopefully before March 15th. Im thinking about going to Bumble and Bumble to specialize in color. But I also want to go to Redkin. But whatver, which ever comes first is cool.
If i do decide to go for Bumble and Bumble i think it might have to be in N.Y.C. So i got a lot to come for me ..... yet dont have much to choose from.
I really dont want to leave Chicago but i want the best for me. I know it will cost alot to go to NY and stay there for about a year. Since im not only going to be doing color i want to do make up. In addition im afraid to leave my mom for some odd ass fucken reason. I know she wants to see me succed. But it seems that she has no expression since she cant believe i've made it this far. And either can i. But meh.... this is what life is about isnt it? Ill try my best, become the best.

Well, just a little update and alot of nothing. Im nervous and actually dont know what to do now. So much shit in this industry that i dont know what to choose from.
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body language. [Oct. 22nd, 2006|03:32 pm]
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..and then the holidays come. I care so much for the ppl that help me get thru life. Espacially the ones that make me laugh, smile and simply make me feel like im worth something of my life.
School has been alot. I didnt quite think that I would make it at all! I waited a year for this dream to start and now that im in it im afraid of holding on to it. Sometimes i dont have confidence in myself. I see that there is competition and i back off. But the one thing that motivates me if the fact that no matter what... they also started a groung shit. So i need to break out of that phase of not being good at what i do. Sometime i question my life... but who doesnt?

Oh the lighter note, almost done with school.... ohh yeah and I need to move out....Get a nice good job.
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hey jack how are you? [Sep. 26th, 2006|01:17 pm]
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When I think about you I touch myself.....

So this is the best part~ nothing has happen and I don't think that nothing will happen no matter what is said and or done at the moment. Its kinda pathetic having conversations with ur self that u think would help u out at the end. Its better than having to talk to someone who has no idea on what the flying fuck u are talking about.

On the lighter note. Graduation is getting closer that I expected. March.....here I come u fucken needledick.

I got a fucken raise at work! By 50 cents tho. Lmfao what a big fucken woop. I'm starting to look for a salon I can intern. Or something around those lines.

Hate these bitchez at skewl.
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